Obvious Secrets

Thanks Amity, for bringing me out of the doldrums….

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You got me

Let me be

You got me

Can’t you see?

I am feeling ill

You are the eel

Never staying still

Like the waves of the sea

You sting like a bee

I so want to flee

But, baby you got me

It is a bitter pill

I can’t swallow, it’s a meal

That won’t go down; I feel

Nothing but pain sunup till

Sundown- an unending wheel

 

You got me

I am putty

You got me

I am your dummy

I have flutters in my tummy

My minds roams free

Thoughts of you and me

Makes me weak in the knee

I hear you call me ‘baby’

And I feel all mushy

It is only a dream, you see

And in it I call you ‘dearie’

In that world, you are my ‘sweetie’

And your lips define the word ‘juicy’

 

You got me

I do not feel guilty

You got me

I want you so badly

For you, I have become needy

This is real

Everything I feel

I just might keel

Over from the glee

Of loving you with all of me

Even though you do not feel

That way towards me.

I am sorry

I am sorry

For all the times I hurt

You, for all the times I shut

You out,

I am sorry;

I’m a lorry

Full of baggage

Can you manage?

I am afraid you would

But the question is, should

I do that to you?

I am afraid you would stay true

But would I believe that when I am blue?

I am a phony

Do you think me funny?

You think you know me,

Do not trust what you see;

The eyes is most deceptive,

It takes the heart’s perspective-

You see what you want to see, you see?

When the heart is clothed with love

It is like hands sheathed in woolen glove;

I am sorry, I didn’t turn out to be

The picture you painted in your mind

I am sorry, I shouldn’t be;

I am me, do you mind?

I mean, do you mind letting me be?

Letting me be me?

I am sorry, I let you down

But I am not ready to settle down

I mean, settle down for anything less

Than who I want to be; settling for less-

I am me, no more, no less.

 

(c) Copyright, Ogundare Tope 2015

 

Freshly pressed

I am pleased to announce the first ebook from the Z channel. it is a collection of poems previously published on the blog. This is a celebrity edition; it contains personalized poems dedicated to friends on their special days and special poems on random days for special people.

You guessed right, Yemie, Zee, Amity, Jules and others featured in it!

This ebook is dedicated to all Z channel readers.

To download it, click the links below

The Z channel poetry collection: celebrity edition

OR The Z channel poetry collection

OR The Z channel poetry collection: celebrity edition

poetry collection celebrity edition cover page

 

Fly

Fly

Even when your wings are broken,

Pierced through with darts and arrows,

And you nosedive, from thousands of feet

Land with a thud, on the cold earth

Bruised and bloodied, life ebbing out of you.

 

Fly

Especially when all you feel is despair,

And your body is screaming in agony,

When your muscles ache and revolt,

And standing seems an impossible feat.

 

Fly

Let your fall be a prologue to your glory;

Whilst there is life, limitless are the possibilities

Rise, like a phoenix from the ashes.

 

Fly

Against all odds

Soar.

 

Fly

High

 

Fly. Just. Fly

*****

Dedicated to Senor Joe (Adewoyin Joseph) 

 

The Second Year Anniversary

Today, I decided to look in on my blog after so many days away, and I noticed the orange glow of an unread notification on the top corner of the webpage. I clicked on it and saw a message from WordPress “Happy Anniversary with WordPress.com, you have been blogging for 2 years”

So, even though I didn’t have anything to say, I thought it would be nice to write, do a post to commemorate the day.

First, I reflect over the last one year and well, it hasn’t been encouraging in terms of readership and engagement on the site. The stats are abysmal…but hey, I have still got my loyal fans…

Plus, writing hasn’t been too good either. I have read so many rejection letters…and boy those things do sting! Ouch! Plus do they have to be so condescending?! Mean people! (Please don’t mind me o, I am just sulking…they are not mean or maybe not all of them…)

Second, I search through the blog posts and read again the post I did last year and the comments and smile. I see the enthusiasm and excitement bubbling over that page and I can only see a fraction of that here and now. So much has changed since then…

Third, I see the plans I had for my writing and reflect on how far I have gone in actualizing them and well, let’s just say not much has been done. I am happy to inform you that as soon as Master Su gets in touch with me, I might have some good news to share…Master Su! Please answer me…

Fourth, I am grateful that my dream came true. Yemie aka super fan finally heeded our collective advice and started writing! And boy the things she writes…sizzling, piping hot and spicy stuffs! It is so sweet that the Master Su himself, the award winning writer and poet is yearning for more screaming for “part 2” while he meant “part 3” or maybe he really meant “part 2” meaning that he wanted a second helping….

If you have not been to her blog, one word for you: where have you been hiding?! Under a rock perhaps? Go there now! www.oluwaballer.wordpress.com

Fifth, I am grateful for the loyal readers who have remained solidly behind me, supporting me, encouraging me and always getting in touch when I go into hibernation for too long. Shout out to Senor Joe, who braved all the odds of time constraints, conflicting schedules and competing interests to come into the cave I had been hiding just to look out for me. To Amity, and her ever timely and surprising sweet messages, that warm me first thing in the mornings…such a sweet heart! To Jules, and her ever comments. To Zee, my elder sis…lol! To Dr Swag.

To Yemie…words fail me: only you get me to become speechless…you take my breath away dear.

Sixth, I have been working on a little project for a while now…and had forgotten all about it till now. It is a poem collection (celebrity edition) featuring poems about my favorite people…a collection of personalized poems for my favorite people here on blogosphere….watch out! And erm, thank you Yemie for your input…you rock!

Seventh, I am going to post a poem too. It is apt for this occasion…I wrote it some days ago but wasn’t sure about putting it up….but I like the message and it is fitting. So go to the next page to read it…and please comment and share.

Eight, this is turning out to be longer than planned.

Ninth, thank you all dear readers for making the journey worthwhile….keep reading, keep commenting…keep sharing.

Tenth, just because it is cool to have a list of ten things!